I’m a non-binary, polyamorous person finally exploring the kink and BDSM world I never thought would be mine while growing up entrenched in conservative Christianity. From my pastor parents to my religious employment, I lived the exemplary good girl life.
Until I didn’t.
Now I’m chasing the life I want with a sex-positive spirituality that would have my parents rolling in their graves.
This blog is my place to share that journey, in hopes that someone else out there might feel a little less alone in theirs.
Yes, I will talk about kink and sex clubs, bruised asses and BDSM dungeons. But I’ll also dive into shifting spirituality, mental health, neurodivergence, marriage, healing, and reflections from books and film. Life isn’t compartmentalized, so neither is this blog.
I believe in consent not just in the bedroom (or the dungeon!), but in all areas of life. You’ll find content warnings before sensitive topics because while I’ll speak my truth about submission and all the messy contradictions that make me who I am, you deserve to engage with care.
When I’m not earning that coveted “good girl” praise from my Dom, you can usually find me lounging on my couch cuddling with my cats, watching comfort shows or vibing with an audiobook.
I’d love to hear from you. Share your own story, ask questions, or drop thoughts in the comments. Let’s talk, reflect, and learn together.
“I am not a ray of sunshine”
People always tell me,
“You’re so happy all the time,
Always laughing and smiling!”
These are things come from the sun,
So I must be of the sun, too.
But I laugh because I know
how bad it hurts to weep
But I smile because I know
that small things alter days
I’m kind because the I know
the world is always cruel
And I hope because I know
the future comes regardless
And I’m happy because I’m alive
But half of me is always in darkness
Sometimes I can’t even see the Sun
And I’ve never been able to
create my own light
But I see you in the darkness
So very far from the sun
And all I can do to help you
Is to steal a bit of sunlight
And reflect it back on you
I’m not a ray of sunshine
I’m the motherfucking moon
Disclaimer
To maintain my privacy and the privacy of my loved ones, I’ve chosen to remain anonymous in this space. But everything you read here is real and deeply personal.